I Don't Care (1)

I don't care about what other people think about me.

Express Yourself!

Self-expression is art.
Self-expression is dance.

Self-expression is music.

Self-expression is literature.

Self-expression is your own creation.

Self- expression is about telling your story in words, music, painting anything that brings out your inner thoughts and feelings. Whether through graceful, sinuous steps to soulful tunes or canvases splayed with fiery colors, self-expression is indulging, openly, in what you love and what defines you as human.

As teenagers growing up in a restrictive and contradictory society, where people speak rarely about what is in their hearts, the arts are possibly the only refuge for the mind. Self-expression can be little acts of dyeing your hair pink and blue, or larger commitments like the arts. Self-expression comes from within. Self-expression is also affected by the morals you take on, instinctive choices you make and the experiences you have absorbed.

Put simply, self-expression shows who you are.

Art is where you feel at home. Dance is where you run free, emancipated. Literature is where the mind reflects. Music is where emotions explode. If you express yourself honestly, self-expression is where the inner self bursts forth, bold and brave, blatantly telling the world, “This is me.”

Quoting from the American civil rights leader Martin Luther King,Jr., “Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

The arts are said to be a reflection of society. With the progression of society comes maturity in art. Without art, society would be a vast, bland and uncreative space. Art has changed the world into a more beautiful and wonderful place.

The well-known writer Oscar Wilde once said, “Life has been your art. You have set yourself to music. Your days are your sonnets.”

Art replenishes us with vigor and drive for perfection and self-fulfillment. It is our pursuit of perfection and yearning for happiness that adds color to our lives.

I am a pianist. Music allows me the chance to express myself and brings me enjoyment. Music has been my friend and teacher since the very day I embarked on this grand adventure. From the humble moments of starting a new piece to the pride of mastering it and the sheer joy of hearing it played beautifully, the entire process is a form of self-expression. Music strengthens my individuality, allows for a few hours of precious solitude and develops my own unique identity.

Both the French playwright, novelist and poet Victor Hugo and the classical composer Ludwig Van Beethoven are credited with saying, “Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent.”

In a rapidly modernizing world with an increasingly faster pace of life, how often do you get the chance to sit down, reminisce and reflect? Art offers the unexplainable joy of immersing yourself, for just a few hours, in your own identity. Art is the truest form of self-expression. Those few hours are when you can entirely be yourself, not be conscious of perhaps critical onlookers and where you can speak, unbound.

Anger. Brazen, dissonant music. A clash of colors. Fast, striking movements. Peace. Tranquil, soothing harmony. A perfect blend of hues. A graceful leap. Anxiety. Fast, intertwining scales. Speeding, jittery scratches. Agitated spirals. Sorrow. Melancholy tunes. Faded shades. Passionate involvement. Joy. Lively, merry melodies. Bright, radiant colors. Exhilarating jumps.

Art divulges our innermost thoughts. Art illustrates our feelings. Art discloses our selves

Gladys Lim

Nanyang Girls' High School Singapore

source : http://www.thejakartapost.com/youthspeak/4/8/express-yourself.html

Yes or No?

Sometimes I feel everything that I have done is vain. Why? This is one example of my feeling. Sometimes I hope that my action will bring good influence for me.

Like this. Sometimes I help my friends to do their job. I do it because I sincerely want to help them, and I really want to help them. I often to do it. But it all turned out to be a boomerang for me.

More frequent I help people, so longer I am being stupid and weak. Because, when I used to help people, some of them were always asking for help from me, they don’t even think about my situation. For example, when I was working on my own job, I should spend my time to help my friend. But in the end, I didn’t do my job with the maximum results. It will only bring harm to me.

I have a problem. When I have the task of art, I knew that I had to do it at home.Because, I would not have had time to do at school. I sure, I will use my power to do their job. Once I was doing my half-owned art class. Approximately 15 people.

Actually I'm tired, I feel myself is only used by them. They became good to me because there is something they want from me. They don’t understand how I felt. They should know, not every time I can help. I am not a maid who can be ordered at any time. In fact, I can help them if the time is right.

This is my problem, I am very weak. I can not deny what I don’t like. I can not resist, I can not reject it, I can not say "no." I don’t know if I'll stay like this forever.

The Shadow and The Beetle

My point of view has changed. I don't know why, but maybe this is a very sad moment for me, and it pushed me into the deep disappointment. I really want to change that view.

They're not looking straight at me, but with the meandering view. Even though I acted as usual, it doesn’t change everything. 

I'm no longer as a people who like a firefly, but I look like a beetle.

Why?

At first I thought everyone was coming from me who can’t manage the pace and the way I look at the other people. Yes, perhaps this could be one reason why I look like a beetle. But apparently not entirely come from me.

All of that came from its, my virtual image. It is an opaque shadow and sometimes it lost when the sun doesn’t exist. It is very friendly with the sun. It was not sun’s fault, though sun is the one who led the presence of shadows. But the shadow still haunts me, and not become a good shadow. He became a shadow that can move and don’t follow my movements.
The shadow is exactly that made me look like a beetle.

I have been told the second person, that my life is not completely surrounded by a bunch of seagulls. I know, they are not a bunch of seagulls. They are merely living organisms that have been unconsciously become my bliss former. They used to do that.

But the shadow did not think so. It considers us as a bunch of seagulls. In fact he participated include myself in that group.

I don’t want to be like that. Because all of that just make me lose it all. Therefore, please don’t be my virtual image. You can be like a butterfly that is free to fly, and it makes you show the real you. You have to show yourself, because that is your life.

learning and studying

I was born as an ordinary girl, but in my own, I an the extraordinary in the eyes of God, because He has created me in such a way, and I sure that I really meant in His eye. I feel that my life is very meaningful, and of course I have to believe that I am precious for Him.

My life was carved by him, and I have passed these cuts, although sometimes there were some scratches that must be removed. It purposes to eliminate all feelings of sadness and grief that I experienced, and start again with new scratches. Of course this new incision makes my life more beautiful.

Although sometimes I had time to feel bored with this life, but there are also times where I really felt happy. And that time wasn’t happening just a few moments, but in a long time. There are also times where I felt there is satisfaction in me, and it was my own experience. Satisfaction has caused excitement in me, and encouraged me to do it again.

I have a strong urge to try something new. I also don’t know why I can feel satisfied when I managed to do something. It is learning. Maybe some people assume that people who learn a lot, are the people who only understand the theory ,and don’t know how to do the practice. Many people also think that people who learn a lot, definitely with thick glasses, diligent to the library, and nerds. But that's not the real meaning of learning. Perhaps more precisely, it is the sense of reading books, not learning.

Learning what I mean is, the experience where someone gets a new lesson, and make that person understand what they should do by studying it.

And I really like learning.

I learn every day. It is not just learn which it is always reading books. I learned everyday is my life experience and life experiences of others. When I studied it, I got a veryvaluable lesson in my life, and may be difficult for me to forget until I grew up.

When I get a problem, automatically I will learn to solve the problem. And when theproblem is resolved, I experienced a lot of experience, from how I have to understand the problems I had, learn to accept other people's opinions, ask questions to others,and how I must finish it.
All must have the process. In solving any problem there is also the process. What I need now is a process, not results. When I pass through the process, I will learn a great deal to proceed. This will bring my personal towards a higher quality.

I hope, everyone will always be learning. Learning from life experience themselves and others, and I sure, the lessons they get from their efforts are certainly very valuable to their lives. Because that's what will help them to become good personal.

actually these words are for you

These words are only for those who think that the world is so hard, and maybe we will be hard to deal with it. How we can think that this world is hard, it always comes from the problems that we experience and how big the problems experienced. Actually the size of the problems experienced by dependent people themselves, how to deal with the problem. Some people considered some of the problems was small, but for certain people would assume that it is a serious problem and must be dealt with seriously as well.

For you, who has faced the problem, don’t think that the problem is burdening life. Originally you need to know that the problem occurred maybe because of your fault, and you have to think with open eyes the causes of the problem. You also must know that it will only help to set up a person who's strong, wise, and probably will make you better. I'm not even sure, whether I deserve to say this, because I have made a person had a very big problem, and she's hard to forgive me.

The problem that you're experiencing is quite common that happens in this life. When you decided to surrender, then you don’t have the strength to face it. But when you decided to deal with a strong heart, then indirectly you get an important lesson in life, how you have to deal with life, and all you have experienced it is a beautiful treasure in your life. You must appreciate that. Don’t just rely and follow your feelings.

Sometimes when you experience a problem, don’t just rely on feelings. But use the logic and your mind. You need to rely on it. The mind that has you have, maybe can help you to solve problems. But when you just rely on feel alone, you could be wrong. You can either walk, and will not find the right path. Conversely, when you only rely on your logic course, you will not get a valuable lesson, and you are only concerned only with your selfish. Most important in solving problems, rely on God, and use logic and feelings. It had to be balanced in your life.

don't you know about it?

Maybe I know how you feel, and I really understand how you feel. But I feel that you are too excessive in the face of it all. You rely too much on how you feel, and say to yourself, that you're the only part that hurt, and you are most hurt.

You always think that no one who cares about you, and you think that you are alone. People who are close to you no one watching you, and always leave you. But all that's wrong. You don’t understand the feelings of the people who care about you. You don’t know how much they care about you. That only you care about, that you people who are suffering and need to be pitied. Even you need and seek support from the people, to make you rise up. However, in my opinion, you're just hiding behind your sadness.

That's you. How is my position at that time, a very confused and in conflict with myself. At that time all that will do must be wrong. Don’t you know? You just blame me, always and always. You're too good to pretend in front of me, and I know, you actually feel very hurt right?

You also need to know, not only you are hurt. We are doing all that, and hide it from you, it's just to prevent you to feel pain deeper. If we were careless people, and unconcerned with your feelings, we could simply open it to you without thinking about your feelings. We are very dizzy, and don’t know what we should do in order not to hurt your feelings, so we try to hide it.

However in your eyes, everything we do is wrong. You assume all we do is to hurt you, and YEAH it is too much for me. Even you write all your regret and feelings in the media which can be read by everyone.

If you were a simple and straightforward, you should not need to write about it in public places. You could just internalize it in your heart. If you needed to vent, write in a book of your journal. That is a good place to reveal everything.

Anyway, it's better you just end all this. If you continue to feel that way, it actually just torturing yourself. Your life will not be free. Go with it this is as usual. I also don’t know, whether you deserve to say this, because I'm the one to make you feel hurt.
You never stand in my position right? I hope you will experience it, because at that time you will also experience confusion was a very large, even you have no idea what to do. And all you'll do just makes you get into big problems.

You also continue to blame me, and tell everyone that I'm so evil. HeyYou must know, it’s enough. So I DON’T CARE. What you do is cornered me, and I ask, are you also deserve to be called as a friend? During this time I was always a party to blame. I do not care, because I will live my day as usual.